I’m such an odd person. I’m overly ambitious and I want to do all these amazing things, yet when I do them, I seem to back out, just when I’m getting good.
Honestly, that isn’t me tooting my own horn, I just get going and put all this passion into something I love, then drop it when I start getting to a higher level.
Playing at an International Baseball Competition 2010, Germany.
I’m guessing it’s down to a confidence issue. I’ve gone through so many different hobbies it’s unbelievable. I’ve played the saxophone, taken ballet lessons, been on a baseball team, done scuba diving… the list goes on… these things are amazing talents and things to have been apart of…so it breaks my heart that the younger me wasn’t sure enough of herself to keep going.
I’m pretty gutted I stopped with some of these. I’m not bothered about the baseball team as I would have stopped by now (I was 15 when I started, I’m 24 now), but dancing, saxophone and scuba diving are something I would have loved to carry on with. It may have been a pain to do in between my adult life style, but if you have a passion for something, you shouldn’t let life get in the way.
So what now? Well. I’m seeing how I go and taking baby steps. I’m keeping up my blog and challenging playlist to see if I can stick to those, and then I’m going to look at getting my diving license back and getting back into the sax. Both of these are on my thirty before thirty list.
Using snorkelling gear before starting scuba diving in Egypt, 2008
I don’t want to carry on saying “I wish I could do that” or “I wish I didn’t stop doing that”. I’m just going to do what I want to do and actually stick with it this time. Mentally, I’m so much better, and I have no reason not to be overly ambitious all over again.
Much Love
Hope
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