The feeling that she recognized me can’t be compared to anything else, I tried to say Sorry from my eyes for staring at her that brutally and then suddenly………………………
Then suddenly she stared away with a look as if she mistook me for someone else, I felt as if a thousand shards of sharp glass was stabbed in my heart, I started to drown myself in a deep ocean of depression. But then suddenly she looked at me again with a confident look in her eyes that said ‘I can’t be mistaken’, that was the moment when our eyes met for the first time after I lost her in my childhood days. Her deep green eyes made me feel like said a thousand words, the words of kindness, the words of affection, I felt as if I can keep staring in her eyes as long as my heart is beating and even then I would feel like that I wasn’t able to get enough time with her. She tried to ask me, from her eyes, if I remember her from her or not. But little did she knew that my eyes weren’t that descriptive as hers, they only knew how to blink. But still I tried to reply with the eyes which made her smile and her smile was as graceful as if a thousand flowers bloomed in a spring noon.
All the while my parents were looking at me, knowing completely that their son is on the verge of falling in love. The first love of his life. They didn’t wanted to embarrass me but at the same time they wanted to be a part of this moment too. My mom signaled my father and my father put his hand on my shoulder, her hand felt like the sudden cloud of storm in my sunny moment, he told me to get up and go talk to her because you never know what can happen next. Suddenly that refreshed my memory of the promise that I made to that old man that if I saw this girl next I would gather the courage and would tell her about my feelings. I felt a sudden surge of confident energy flowing inside my body I stood up but even before I took a step I felt like the most stupidest person in all the world, what would I say to her? How would she react? What if she slap me? A thousand questions like that started rushing to my mind and what would I say? that I used to saw you sitting at the bench of the park while you had no idea, who the heck am I, but love is a synonym of stupidity, courage and confidence isn’t it?
So, I gathered all the courage that I had and started walking towards her, she saw me coming but she ignored as if she didn’t saw me( and that didn’t helped me at all ) for every forward step I took, I had a thousand thoughts of going back but the only thought that kept me going forward was that”what if I never saw her again”, every time when I had that thought my courage boosted a thousand times. I arrived at her table with no clue what to say. Standing there like a statue of concrete, she looked at me and said” can I help you?“ that question was enough to make me quit.I was about to turn but then suddenly she said“I saw you looking at me, is there anything you wanna say?”. I wanted to say a thousand words but not even a single phrase was coming out of my mouth, so I decided to confront her as a stranger( which I actually was in her eyes) and said,” you are the prettiest girl, I have ever seen, I couldn’t get my eyes off of you, can we hangout later if you want”.
Trust me these were the dumbest words that a guy can ever say to a girl and I was pretty sure that I am gonna die as a stranger in her eyes, but then I saw her blushing with a confused look on her face, and then she said“I don’t trust anyone that easily but if we ever met again then I promise that we would hangout”. That was like the sweetest refusal that one can ever get in life, she left the table and I started to walk back to my parents with a look of defeated soldier on my face.
My mom immediately observed my pain and then she said the same thing that she said 3 years back,“ if it’s meant to happen, then it is gonna happen”.
But I guess it was meant to happen……….
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