While I have been very indecisive and unclear about what I want to do in life (work/career path – that is another post for another time), one thing I do know is: I am so over being pregnant. I will be 29 weeks tomorrow, hell – let’s just go ahead and say I’m 29 weeks! I’m inching closer and closer to my due date and I couldn’t be more ready.
Sleep is impossible. Sitting is uncomfortable. Breathing is getting increasingly more difficult. The amount of trips I take to the bathroom to pee are insane! And the more water I drink to hydrate myself to keep contractions away have me going to the bathroom even more (I had no idea that was even possible). I only work two days out of the week; that’s right – I have a 5 day weekend and a 2 day work week and I am already feeling like:
Sadly, “maternity leave” also means not getting paid … so that really isn’t an option. I also believe it isn’t common to take maternity leave 10 weeks before your due date. However, my second pregnancy has really been challenging me! I was able to work until I gave birth in my first pregnancy, but this new little man – he is running things. On my days off, I wake up, take my son to school, then come home and go back to sleep until about 10 or 11 o’clock. If I had a particularly challenging night, like last night where I only got 3-4 hours of sleep, I will sleep in even later! I just feel so exhausted all the time, and everything feels like a challenge and takes up so much of my energy.
You would think this is the life: only working two days a week and the freedom to come home and sleep even longer 5 times a week. But it isn’t the life, because I would love to take these surplus of days off and have the energy to be productive! I’m winded after standing up and cleaning the sinks in the only two bathrooms we have … I sure hope the itch to “nest” doesn’t hit me because it’ll drive me crazy to not have the energy to do all the nesting things I will want to do. I really shouldn’t complain, I really do have it pretty easy considering I have all of this time to take it easy. I know once our new little man gets here I will be begging for the days where I laid around and did nothing for about 80-90% of the day. I just hate that I have minimal energy to put towards work on the two measly days I am expected to show up because I sleep like crap the night before. Maybe if I could get more sleep I would have more energy so that I could work more than 2 days. At the same time …. I find myself wishing that I didn’t have to go to work at all for these next 2+ months and just take it easy every day until Baby Willis arrives! I just can’t win can I?
