I have been in a rather weird funk lately, Mostly just lost in my direction of life. I have kept reinventing myself over and over a lot this past year trying to find what version of me is the one I want to be. I have been uninspired and ultimately confused in what it is I want to do. Luckily, I have the most amazing friend who granted me some great perspective into my life. She told me I dwell a lot on things and that I always try to seek sympathy from others for the same thing over and over. I never noticed this about myself, I wish I had earlier but I didn’t. It was the clearest epiphany I’ve ever had in my life things never looked so easy since it was just pointed out to me. There have been a lot of times where I could’ve just grown and escaped a situation but I always became so stuck on problems or situations no matter how small.
All I want to do now is to start giving a shit about the things that truly matter. Motivations and inspiration never last long enough to make your dreams come true. Hard work and habits is what makes people live and pursue their dreams. It all came to light when I visited the Museum of Contemporary art and saw Takashi Murakami’s exhibit. It was just so god damn amazing. I have never ever spent so much time in a gallery before I looked at every detail, wondered at the process, and marveled at each and every painting. It was truly something I never experienced looking at art before. There was one painting that stuck with me but I didn’t take a picture of it as it seemed really personal from the artist and think people needed to see it personally. Well the gist of the painting is pretty much a paragraph of what the artist thoughts and feelings about his work but what really stuck with me is him going through how he’s really not all that social and how awkward he can be with people but he realized as he grew more into his own he needed these people to help grow as an artist because he really couldn’t do this all on his own to realize his dream. That really spoke to me because it made me realize I can’t do everything on my own and I shouldn’t be afraid to ask for help or be in the presence of others. It really helped to realize this and i’m glad I did.
If you haven’t seen or heard of Takashi Murakami which is probably impossible if you know Kanye West’s Album “Graduation” you’ve seen his work I really recommend checking out this exhibit it’s only there till this Sunday, 24th of September in Chicago at the Museum of Contemporary Art. I really recommend to check it out it’s really an eyegasmic treat.
