The last two weeks have been quite the whirlwind, I have not had the time or mind-set to sit down and write. I am on week two, of my new job. I am having one of those “why did I quit a job I loved and knew what I was doing, to a job I have NO CLUE.” kinda moment. Mercy! I am 40 years old and starting a new job that is a bit out of my comfort zone. I know that if I put my mind to it, I can accomplish anything. Which is exactly why I have the words “I can do all things”, tattooed on my wrist.
Life can surprise us sometimes. Did I expect to be sitting here at a desk, working for a company I thought I never would be considered for? NOPE definitely not! I always try to push myself to experience things that I normally would never do. We won’t know what we can do if we never try. I believe that we need to put ourselves in situations that we can learn from, even though it makes us uncomfortable. We need to set our limits high.
I have always told my children that they can do anything that they want. All they have to do is make a plan and go along for the ride. Of course, life is not always easy, and sometimes very stressful.
Saturday, our daughter had a mini breakdown. Her college finals are next week and she had two 5-page essays to complete. She was having a hard time dealing with it all. I tried to talk to her and I don’t think I was saying the right things, because it was just making her more upset. I talked to my husband and asked him to talk to her.
He went and talked to her and after a while, when I felt it was safe, I joined them. Sitting on a little footstool in my daughter’s bedroom, I learned something about my husband that I guess I never knew, or never took time the time to find out. Both my husband and daughter suffer from anxiety. It is tough for them. Well if you have read my blog posts then you know that I suffer from anxiety as well but not on the same level that they do. I am just angrier with everything around me than they are. As he was telling her what he did to get through life, I realized I did the same things to get through the anger and stress.
I guess it never crossed my mind that he had the same techniques to calm down that I did. I had to go to therapy to get help and find what techniques worked for me, but I guess I could have just asked him. More than likely he had told me, but I didn’t listen.
Everyone goes through things in life they need to learn to deal with. Life is not always fun and games and sometimes we have to do things we don’t enjoy doing. Sometimes those tasks we have to do cause anger, anxiety, or stress. They have to get accomplished somehow, we just need to find what works.
By the end of the weekend our daughter got both essays done and survived. I hope what we both said something that helped her. Between us both, I think we diverted a major crisis in our daughter’s life. Being parents is not one of those “easy” hikes, where the trail is flat and mostly downhill. Even though it may not be easy, the journey it takes you on is very worth it all.
I don’t regret taking a new job, but until I know what I am doing it will most certainly be a little daunting, but I guess there are a lot of things that is just like that. So in a way, I am a lot like my daughter who is having a crisis over two 5-page essays. I just have to take one day at a time.
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