Yes ! I know this is not a fashion blog. However that is me in the picture up there. I look happy right?? Well yes I am very happy but trust me I was not this happy a year ago.
I was so depressed last year. I felt so useless and worthless . I had just lost my dad ( my super hero ) and I was betrayed by two people I trusted . Two people I thought would be here for me but well they just proved to be the opposite of what I thought they were.
I kept blaming myself and calling myself stupid the whole time. I felt like a dummy, like how did I allow this happen. How come I didn’t notice how fake those people were? I was even scared to meet new people and relate with them. And the worst is I tried committing suicide like twice but my friend was there to save the day. ( Farie ❤️)
All this was going on for a while during the year until I decided to go for therapy. I never thought of therapy until my psychology teacher made mention of it in class. The discussion was about psychological disorders and their therapies and she mentioned that, there was a free therapy session in my school and also a text messaging system for students who were shy.
So that night I decided to use the text messaging system and trust me that conversation with the therapist changed my life. She made me understand that everything that I was going through was not my fault.
The most important part was that I realized I was the cause of my depression. This is because the same people who treated me dirty were still in my life and each time I saw something about them, gave me flashbacks of what they did. For the record, I thought of blocking them but my instincts kept hurting in regards to what people might say? I continued thinking that people will call me the loser .
All the same I decided to just block both of them that night after the session with the therapist and guess what? It worked. After a month of blocking them, I did not feel depressed like I used to because I do not see them on my snapchat or instagram page anymore. As a matter of fact the bad memories from the past never occurred again. I mean it does reoccurs sometimes , but it was minimal.
To cut the long story short, all I want to tell you is , perhaps what might be the cause of your depression is still lurking somewhere around you and no matter how hard you try to beat depression, as long as you still come in contact with that thing , you will always be depressed. Forget about what people will say about you. Do what will make your life a happy one.
My advice to you is
- Block anyone who is messing with your happiness
- Cut ties with friends who ain’t worth your time
- And lastly don’t allow anyone ever to ruin your happiness because you rule and own your own happiness.
Like O.T Genasis Said ” Cut it “, “Cut it”, Cut it” ✂️✂️✂️. So my dear Kings and Queens , adjust your crowns and do what makes you feel better .
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